I'm officially 21st and legal for casino. But this year, I turned 21st with a mixed feeling. The feeling of joy that i'm finally an adult and it is time for me to be responsible for certain things in life, be it family, relationship wise, academic matter, future undertaking and etc. Being labelled as an adult means I have more freedom from my parents even though I'm still under their not-so-tight-surveillance.
In the same time, I feel pain for it as well. Thinking about it, I'm not the only one who is growing up/turning old, my parents are too in the same time. I'm 21 now and my dad is 56, mum's age remains a secret. And when I'm 22, my dad will be 57 and the counting goes on and on. It is scaring me to bit actually.
This year, I'm turning 21 without my grandma with me. T__________T Now this is sad. For the fact that she raises me up with all her heart, been with me for the past years seeing me growing up from a baby to a naive kid, rebellious teenager and now, watching me growing up as an adult in heaven. Since small, my parents will throw me a b'day party every year at home or somewhere else. And my grandma will never forget to give me an ang po signifying my growth and of course the traditional red eggs.
I miss you.
On the other hand, I thanks my parents whole-heartedly for raising me, pampering me and loving me with all their hearts for 21 years and counting. I'm grateful for being their daughter and I thanks God for such pair of loving parents. I was once rebellious, went against my parents will a lot and yet they never fail to be protective and supportive towards me. I thank my father for being such a nice father and is always there to listen to me, satisfying my needs and greeds and constantly guiding me to the right path. And I thank my mother for being such an amazing mum with great patience, though we might argue sometime but it just strengthen us a lot, being so protective and leading me to the right path.
I love you.
And not to forget him, my special one, for giving me something worthy and priceless which money can't buy.
It is his heart that I have, I thank you. :)